Home Mama!

So Kendall was out today taking her beloved Baby WeeWee out for a walk. As I sat on the porch and watched, she waved goodbye. Suddenly she stopped, started walking back, ran up, gave me a kiss and said "Home Mama" I can not tell you what I was feeling at that moment, but it was a rush of sadness and extreme joy all mixed up. Joy that my beautiful (and I mean beautiful, quite possibly the most beautiful two year old in the word) daughter has such a sweet, loving heart, and that she wanted to come home and give her mommy a kiss. Sadness because she is getting so big, and one day it will be "Home mama" after her first day of kindergarten, "Home mama" after a first date, "home mama" after a semester in college...I sat there and willed myself to remember every single thing about that moment...but I did that when she was a tiny baby, and I can't remember her smell, the way she felt in my arms....oh how sad is that?

So I am focusing on the fun stuff-the fact that she IS a BIG girl and can play and talk to me. She gets cuter and smarter every single day! I don't think I have ever heard any sweeter words than "home mama." Well, except for maybe the Love ya mommy that I got before bed tonight!

Summer summer summer time

I have like 4 weeks of summer left. Seriously? WTF? I feel like I haven't done anything this summer. My days have been filled with Gymboree, swimming, zoo trips...and although I LOVE doing all of those things, I wish I was going on a trip. I get pissed when people say "Did you go anywhere this summer." Ummm no!

Kendall and I have done swimming lessons the past few days. So much fun. I made her go underwater, which she doesn't love, but I am proud of her for doing it. Today we did the slides and she was way all about it-she is so adventurous-the opposite of me!

Tonight we are going to Piccolos for my grandpa's birthday-so excited I love that place and I love my family. My grandpa is the best-he loves Leo and Kendall so much!

Bored

So it is 2:50 and I have an appointment to get my eyebrows done at 4:00. Kendall is sleeping and I am bored out of my mind. I have been through my usual sites ten times in the last 15 minutes, so I thought I would blog. About what? I'm not sure.

These are a few of my favorite things:

Kendall's messy hair in the morning

Fajitas

Watching Kendall chase bubbles

Being Tan

Getting e mails from friends

People Magazine and US weekly

Dancing at weddings

Make your own six packs (a recently discovered favorite)

Whopper Jr.

Sleeping In

Playing at the park

Fire pit nights

Game nights

T.V.

Family Snuggle Time

The first day of school

The last day of school

Pepperjax Steak Philly-Fireballed

Kissing

Obama

So now I am bored writing my blog about being bored! I think I hear Kendall so hopefully my best buddy will be ready to play with me!

Be Thankful

So I am addicted to this new blog. It is written by a guy who lost his wife 15 weeks ago, a day after his daughter was born. Heartbreaking yes. I cry through every post, but seriously, it totally puts my life in perspective. Like any problems I think I have, I am lucky to have instead of dealing with the loss of my spouse and raising my child by myself. I can not even begin to imagine. Like today, Ryan and I totally got into it because we were late to his grandma's birthday lunch (totally his fault btw). But is that even really something to fight about? Uggghhh..sometimes I am so selfish and take everything I have for granted!

Kendall can count to 3 now...she is like the smartest kid ever! Gotta go, I hear her beautiful voice yelling for her mommy....

Pic of Kendall sleeping during the fireworks show!

So Ryan and I went on a total bender this past week. I think we thought we were 21 again. It started on Wed. with the 311/Snoop Dogg concert. (Which was totally bad ass!). Thursday night I took Kendall to my parent's friends' fourth of July party, and i had a blast watching her with the fireworks "Byer Woks Mommy Boom Boom" Friday was our block party (okay time) and Sat. we went to Blake and Sarah's condo for a night of fun.
So this weekend has made me realize that I am officially OLD! My body could not take any more partying, and my sat. night I was dead. Although i almost had a glass of wine last night, until Ryan told me that was ridiculous (which coming from him says a lot ).
Speaking of Ryan, I had a dream last night that he was the father of Lisa's unborn baby, and he could care less that I was upset about it. It was one of the worst dreams I have ever had, and I am still kind of pissed at him about it!