Home Mama!

So Kendall was out today taking her beloved Baby WeeWee out for a walk. As I sat on the porch and watched, she waved goodbye. Suddenly she stopped, started walking back, ran up, gave me a kiss and said "Home Mama" I can not tell you what I was feeling at that moment, but it was a rush of sadness and extreme joy all mixed up. Joy that my beautiful (and I mean beautiful, quite possibly the most beautiful two year old in the word) daughter has such a sweet, loving heart, and that she wanted to come home and give her mommy a kiss. Sadness because she is getting so big, and one day it will be "Home mama" after her first day of kindergarten, "Home mama" after a first date, "home mama" after a semester in college...I sat there and willed myself to remember every single thing about that moment...but I did that when she was a tiny baby, and I can't remember her smell, the way she felt in my arms....oh how sad is that?

So I am focusing on the fun stuff-the fact that she IS a BIG girl and can play and talk to me. She gets cuter and smarter every single day! I don't think I have ever heard any sweeter words than "home mama." Well, except for maybe the Love ya mommy that I got before bed tonight!

Summer summer summer time

I have like 4 weeks of summer left. Seriously? WTF? I feel like I haven't done anything this summer. My days have been filled with Gymboree, swimming, zoo trips...and although I LOVE doing all of those things, I wish I was going on a trip. I get pissed when people say "Did you go anywhere this summer." Ummm no!

Kendall and I have done swimming lessons the past few days. So much fun. I made her go underwater, which she doesn't love, but I am proud of her for doing it. Today we did the slides and she was way all about it-she is so adventurous-the opposite of me!

Tonight we are going to Piccolos for my grandpa's birthday-so excited I love that place and I love my family. My grandpa is the best-he loves Leo and Kendall so much!

Bored

So it is 2:50 and I have an appointment to get my eyebrows done at 4:00. Kendall is sleeping and I am bored out of my mind. I have been through my usual sites ten times in the last 15 minutes, so I thought I would blog. About what? I'm not sure.

These are a few of my favorite things:

Kendall's messy hair in the morning

Fajitas

Watching Kendall chase bubbles

Being Tan

Getting e mails from friends

People Magazine and US weekly

Dancing at weddings

Make your own six packs (a recently discovered favorite)

Whopper Jr.

Sleeping In

Playing at the park

Fire pit nights

Game nights

T.V.

Family Snuggle Time

The first day of school

The last day of school

Pepperjax Steak Philly-Fireballed

Kissing

Obama

So now I am bored writing my blog about being bored! I think I hear Kendall so hopefully my best buddy will be ready to play with me!

Be Thankful

So I am addicted to this new blog. It is written by a guy who lost his wife 15 weeks ago, a day after his daughter was born. Heartbreaking yes. I cry through every post, but seriously, it totally puts my life in perspective. Like any problems I think I have, I am lucky to have instead of dealing with the loss of my spouse and raising my child by myself. I can not even begin to imagine. Like today, Ryan and I totally got into it because we were late to his grandma's birthday lunch (totally his fault btw). But is that even really something to fight about? Uggghhh..sometimes I am so selfish and take everything I have for granted!

Kendall can count to 3 now...she is like the smartest kid ever! Gotta go, I hear her beautiful voice yelling for her mommy....

Pic of Kendall sleeping during the fireworks show!

So Ryan and I went on a total bender this past week. I think we thought we were 21 again. It started on Wed. with the 311/Snoop Dogg concert. (Which was totally bad ass!). Thursday night I took Kendall to my parent's friends' fourth of July party, and i had a blast watching her with the fireworks "Byer Woks Mommy Boom Boom" Friday was our block party (okay time) and Sat. we went to Blake and Sarah's condo for a night of fun.
So this weekend has made me realize that I am officially OLD! My body could not take any more partying, and my sat. night I was dead. Although i almost had a glass of wine last night, until Ryan told me that was ridiculous (which coming from him says a lot ).
Speaking of Ryan, I had a dream last night that he was the father of Lisa's unborn baby, and he could care less that I was upset about it. It was one of the worst dreams I have ever had, and I am still kind of pissed at him about it!

Baby Fever????

So my best friend Karen had her baby yesterday! Jack-super cute! I am so freaking happy for them, and hate that she is in Arizona, cause I just want to get some newborn lovin in.

So Ryan and I think we will start trying very soon...but seriously, I'm not sure I can do two kids. Kendall is such a good little girl and I have so much fun palling around with just her...BUT then there are days (right now) when I just want to have another baby like today!! Of course, it will be super weird for Ryan and I to TRY for a kid...I don't know what it is like to take a pregnancy test and hope for the two lines! HA.

Today Kendall and I went to Boingz to bounce and I had a blast...that little girl is my BFF.

For Kendall

So basically the reason I am doing this whole blogging thing is for Kendall. It hit me the other night when I was walking her home from the park that my little baby is almost two. She is growing up so fast, and I don't ever want to forget these moments. Plus, I want to share this with her when she is older! So, most of these blogs will be about the adventures of Kendall.

To get you up to speed: Kendall is 22 months old, and is by far one of the smartest little girls I have ever met! She is beautiful, with lots of brownish blond hair that looks way too cute in pigtails. She is tiny and has an incredible smile. She is a mover! She loves to play soccer and run around. She loves playing with balls and being outside. Her favorite thing about the park is sand. My favorite thing is watching her go down the slides. She loves the color yellow "Lel lo" and constantly wants to eat, although she doesn't eat much. She loves Elmo, babies and baby things, reading books, taking bubble baths, and stickers. She always takes care of her baby "weewee" and refuses to be potty trained. She is a momma's girl, but is getting closer and closer to daddy. She loves her mimi and papa and especially her aunt "Pow Pow" and Jesse.

She loves her Aunt Pippy and "Tot" but only giving high fives to Tot. She loves big trucks and playing with water. She no longer likes going to sleep, at bed time she says "Wake Up" She hates getting her temperature taken.

She loves giving "buzz" tickles, playing with her puppies, and being a helper "I elp Mommy" She is great at restaurants, and such a loving little girl. When she gets excited and screams, it is one of the most beautiful sounds in the world. She loves to play with cell phones and call her Nana. Her new thing is playing ring around the rosie and "all down!" She has a hard time sharing, but we are working on that. She loves going to story time and seeing "Miss Andy (Miss Sandy)" She loves when Daddy goes "beep beep" in the car when he leaves for work in the morning. She insists on putting her shoes on by herself in the car. She hates all vegetables but loves fruit and cheese. She drinks too much juice and always manages to get candy from Papa.

She is loved more than she could ever possibly know, and more than I ever knew I could love someone. Thank God for Kendall!